2/27/08

When I was pregnant...

If Tendulkar started playing cricket at that age, I was thinking about babies. Yes, it was certainly eerie. However, I blame it on our education system which was tad slow during those days due to which I had different misapprehensions in life. This can be the uncanny if only a man experiences it. I thought this little and funny fact of my life should be open to everyone before ‘someone else’ who knows about this speaks out.

The clock struck 4 in the boys’ hostel and we all gathered near the dining hall to have a cup of tea. With half closed eyes, I was watching things with little awkwardness. I knew something was wrong internally as my system was not working as designed. The only question which struck my mind was “Am I pregnant?”

I was little worried and doubtful with a true theatrical expression thinking ‘how can this happen to me?’ I know boys cannot be pregnant, but I was not completely sure and our science teacher was still pages away from chapter no: 8, the reproductive system. Caught in a worst situation, I walked up to my friend who was busy enjoying his cup of tea. I sat down and waited for him to finish his tea, few minutes later I turned my head and asked “Do boys get pregnant?” He was like WTF, and thankfully there was no tea left in the cup but his expression gave me a lot of relief.

My friend asked, “Why the hell did you get that doubt now?” embarrassed to some extent, I confessed the truth. I was in a notion that children are born if people hug each other. I was very scratchy when someone hugged me even out of affection because I had my own fears in mind. I said, “last night was the send-off party and I thought I hugged too many there”.

Few days later, we went through the most appealing pages in the history of nature. I read chapter no: 8 twice just to make sure that everything was in place. My friend smiled and said, “Don’t worry, we are safe!!”

2/5/08

Sounds Of Silence

I know you’re out there. I can feel you now. I know that you’re afraid…you’re afraid of us. You’re afraid of change. I don’t know the future. I didn’t come here to tell you how this is going to end. I came here to tell you how it’s going to begin. I’m going to show them a world without you. A world without rules and controls, without borders or boundaries. A world where anything is possible. Where we go from there is a choice I leave to you….





It was one of the most wonderful trips i had in recent times. It was the ideal break and for the first time I took pleasure being alone. This thought struck my mind after watching “ Im Legend “. On the contrary, staying in a place which is completely isolated for months is definitely mind-numbing. For that reason, I along with few of my office colleagues planned to holiday at an isolated island. We initially thought of spending one whole day on the island, but due to some matured forces, we had to cut it short.

It was like going back to the early-man period. We cooked food on the island making use of sticks to light up fire and stones to place the mud pots. I wanted to try my hand, but my colleagues wanted to enjoy the trip and moreover it’s was an open place where washrooms weren’t available. So, bearing in mind the environmental circumstances, I dint cook :(

It was this island, where one side of it has the river Godavari flowing gracefully and the other side is touched by the Bay of Bengal. It was an amazing 4-5 km stretch and not a person around. All I could hear was the sound of the waves and the breeze which came along. Probably, this is called being in Nature’s lap.




I leisurely walked around the island, unaccompanied with our usual responsibilities and other relations. It was me and no-one else. My heart and mind were completely clear. No parents, no friends, no commitments, no demands, nothing…only me! There’s no point in elaborating how I felt because how much ever I write, you will never know how I felt. So, the maximum/minimum you can do is to smile.

I wrote this post only to let you know that I enjoyed being myself. Today, I love myself!!

PS: flickr for more pics.